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Kesper North ([personal profile] kespernorth) wrote2002-06-14 03:38 pm

mundanity

It seems like the only personal conversations I hear going on around here are on the topic of houses bought and sold, kitchens remodeled, cars purchased. They speak of things with real care, real vehemence, like they were talking about the fate of their life and freedom.

The idea of having a serious emotional investment in the color of my kitchen counters is really foreign to me, almost repugnant. It just seems so... horribly dull and meaningless. I don't want to fritter away my private life with "home improvement" and having a deck added to the house. I want to live and dream and write and enjoy the company of my friends and loved ones.

These people need bigger dreams. *sigh*

[identity profile] pullthestars.livejournal.com 2002-06-14 04:14 pm (UTC)(link)
believe me, I used to think that it wasn't a big deal. the whole house buying thing. but now... it's changed. I want roots, I want space that I can call my own.

I want someplace that I can invite my friends to, that I can invest part of myself in. I want that deck.. though really I want a big porch first, for the porch swing.

*sigh* it's hard to describe. and it's possible that a lot of it has to do with age (just turned 30 this year). But I would *love* to have conversations with someone about building a deck because that would mean that I'd have my own house.

Dreams change and bend, all the time. you can live and dream and write, as well as discuss what colour the kitchen should be painted.

[identity profile] kespernorth.livejournal.com 2002-06-14 04:22 pm (UTC)(link)
*nod* I can understand that. It's just that this seems to be all these people care about.

[identity profile] captainzap.livejournal.com 2002-06-14 04:33 pm (UTC)(link)
Well, if these conversations are going on at work, it's not that surprising. I mean, when I worked at the video store, I fought to find something to talk about other than movies...but could never avoid it. Deep personal conversations are for living rooms and coffee houses. Work is for personal achievement and temporal concerns. At least, that's how it seems to be.

[identity profile] pullthestars.livejournal.com 2002-06-14 04:41 pm (UTC)(link)
what they said. it's easier to have a conversation about the new countertops than discuss the personal problems that you're having. and there even might be a bit of "I got new countertops" and "Oh Well *I* have brand new marble hand delivered from Italy wrapped in lambswool resting on a bed of roses". i.e. trying to one-up the other people.