worry

I'm really worried about kinfae. I haven't been able to get ahold of her in two days, and there is still stuff I need to confirm for my trip out there tomorrow. If anyone hears from her, please please please get her to write or call me? I'm seriously worried, now.

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Martin (helix90) thinks the military has called her off to help fighting the floods in the midwest or something. She wouldn't have been given time to call and let me know. (How fucking cruel is that? Stupid military fucking bullshit.)

I don't know. I feel so utterly fucking helpless and worried. The thought of seeing her has been the only thing that has gotten me through the last week and a half. I don't know when I'll hear from her again. I don't know if she'll be back in time for me to use the nonrefundable, nontransferable plane ticket I have for tomorrow. I don't know if she's all right or not.

Gods, let it be okay...

whew.

I just talked to Selena. All is more or less well; we will be together tomorrow.

There were Issues, however, that we talked about and (I think; she was sleepy) more or less resolved. I would however like to take this opportunity to reiterate a couple of things, as much for my own sake as hers:

1. My heart is Selena's. I don't want to be with anyone else. I am terribly, terribly proud to call her mine, and to be hers in return, and I love her very, very much.

2. Selena and I are in a most emphatically monogamous relationship, and I am quite happy with it that way. I have no interest in being with anyone else, sexually or otherwise. I just want Selena.

I hope that I've been absolutely clear? Good.

I'm going to go and try to stave off a raging tension headache now.

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Gods, I'm so emotionally exhausted I feel like I could sleep for a week. I think I'll go home early from work today.

Lots of errands to run prior to my trip tomorrow. :)