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Oct. 5th, 2005 10:08 am
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Found out the other day that my Sa02 (that's blood O2 saturation level) was getting down to around 63% at night, prior to getting the CPAP machine.

49% is fatal.

Yeek.


I've just returned to UW for the final year of my masters' degree. With it I've found a certain amount of renewed interest and passion for my business idea, which is good, because it's the reason why I entered the program in the first place. I still wonder how I'll attract funding, and whether it will work, but I'm making progress. Certainly everyone I've talked to about it thinks it is very exciting and likely to succeed.

As far as my actual classes, I'm taking Journalistic Ethics in Digital Media and Marketing and Branding. The Ethics professor is a pleasant older ex-reporter type who is on the comm department faculty; I like him. The marketing and branding teacher is a shrill, skeletal woman who shrieks like a harpy in a power-suit as she talks. She's rude and unpleasant and I wonder how anyone could stand her long enough to allow her to pitch an idea. She's a self-confessed plodder, an uncreative person who does things by the numbers and trial-and-error. I roll my eyes and read her endless PowerPoint.

We're stuck with a group project for 80% of our grade in that class, too. Feh.


It was [livejournal.com profile] chemicallace and I's anniversary last night, in celebration of which she treated me to a lovely evening at our favorite restaurant, Mistral. Dining there is always an experience to be treasured, and since it was a Tuesday we pretty much had the whole restaurant to ourselves. The service there is beyond reproach -- on our second visit, with Allyson's father last August, the waiter remembered us well even though we'd only been there once before a year previously. He (same waiter) knew it was our anniversary this time and he lavished especially good wine upon us (and let us take the bottle of tokaji home, gods be praised. If you have never had tokaji, do so. It's like drinking the golden light of that particularly sweet sort of sunset after a storm has cleared.).

I made Allyson a card and got her a bouquet of roses (and I'm also taking us on a trip to Vancouver for the weekend at the end of the month, with the end goal of finally seeing the Red Elvises live).

This weekend Allyson's off to a big SCA Ithra down in Oregon, and I have homework to do. (And finally catching Tree up on the rest of Firefly before going to see Serenity again. Which, if you haven't already, you should see, because it was as good as I hoped.)
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Day Two tells me that yesterday was not a fluke: I feel truly awake for the first time in a very long time. Not once did I start to nod off, not on the bus to work, not at work, not at all. And I slept through the night without waking up for the first time in at least three years.

A lot of things that I had ascribed to depression, or "growing up", or just plain getting old, seem to have been due to apnea. I feel emotions more intensely. My imagination seems more active.

I can think analytically again. Today I committed a bugfix for a software project written in a language I don't even know.

Gods, I'm so glad I did this.
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It's been a while, hasn't it? Yes, it has -- a long time since any real substantive content went here. There are reasons for that, none the least has been my departure from F5 and my start of work at Sourcelabs. I've been busy with other things, and tired all the time. Always so very tired. I was passing out at work, on the bus, at home -- I could barely keep two thoughts in my head at the same time, and it took real effort to do anything.

I'm hoping that has changed as of today, however. Thanks to my new health insurance, I was finally able to get the ($5000) sleep study and the ($2000) CPAP machine I needed to treat my sleep apnea. I spent last night at Virginia Mason Hospital's sleep center, and they had me on a CPAP machine for most of the night. The sleep study requires all manner of telemetry, from EKG to motion sensors that detect leg and arm movement to bands around your chest and abdomen that measure chest displacement while breathing. I was attatched to so many wires I felt like the Flying Spaghetti Monster, touching the medical world with My Noodly Appendage.

(I had to restrain myself from joking about it with the lab tech; he didn't seem like the sort to get it.)

So I had no end of trouble falling asleep with all that crap on me, but when I finally did the results were Not Pretty. The tech came in and had me start using the CPAP after what felt like a very brief span of time (I forgot to look at the clock). I really hated it. The mask fitted over my nose, but not my mouth, and I tend to breathe through my mouth a lot. I also experienced an instant claustrophobic reaction -- I could see my oximeter readout holding steady at ninety-six percent, which is perfectly normal for a human at rest, and yet I STILL felt short of breath. The damn thing bothered the hell out of me; it felt like it wasn't sending me enough O2, and I almost called in the lab tech to ask him what was wrong.

There was an oximeter on my finger, though, so I told myself that I was being neurotic and that if I really wasn't getting enough air the tech would have said something.

The sleep I got seemed fitful and full of vivid nightmares. The worst was one in which I dreamed was at home in bed with [livejournal.com profile] chemicallace, but I was still hooked up to all the telemetry-gathering equipment, and something happened -- the wiring was unsafe, and something electrical snapped, and we were both electrocuted.

It was a hideously vivid sensation. I felt a terrible snap as if a transformer had just exploded in my head, sending aftershocks through out my body. In the dream I could feel Allyson shuddering spastically against me as I struggled to pull the wires off of her, knowing that it was killing the both of us, but the electricity was too strong -- I was paralyzed, I couldn't move, I couldn't summon the will to pull the wires from her, let alone myself.

That was the worst of it. I didn't want these stupid wires to kill her, I was the one who had to wear them; it shouldn't hurt her, she shouldn't die from it. And I was powerless to stop it.

I woke up, finally, still feeling short of breath, and quite thoroughly terrorized. I wanted nothing more than to be free of the mass of wires and the mask and everything else. I laid back down in the dark and I guess I must have slept some more at some point, but I didn't really notice. I honestly believed I had spent the whole night lying there feeling like I was suffocating and that I'd hardly slept at all, but apparently I did.

"Did we get a result?" I asked, hoping this hadn't been in vain.

"We're not supposed to talk about results," said the tech, "but I'll say this: you have absolutely no business NOT being on a CPAP machine."

The next morning I met with the doctor assigned me, who happens to be the director of the sleep center. He showed me the data that had been gathered; it showed my apneatic cycle with bald clarity. Amazingly regular cycles: thirty seconds of labored snoring, and two minutes of choking, not breathing. Repeat all night. Two minutes. I can't even hold my breath for a full minute before gasping, while conscious.

The doctor said that he couldn't believe I have lived with this for so long. He said that the session had been very productive; they had the correct calibration settings for CPAP treatment recorded, and that I would be given one immediately.

I then met with another technician who ran me through the use of my new machine, which is a brand-new model. It's only been out for six months, and looks like a typical product of early-21st-century technology: handsomely functional black plastic, glowing controls, LCD panel. It's even got a smartcard reader-writer; it will continue to gather information about my breathing while I use it, and my doctor can view the information on it. It comes with its own carrying bag, which is handy, but the cursed thing is huge, bigger than my laptop bag. I won't be travelling light as long as I'm carrying that thing. Still, anything is better than sleep apnea. As an added benefit, it uses a disposable HEPA filter, so any allergy problems I might have will be vastly reduced as well.

The technician turned out to be a scuba diving enthusiast, so we chatted for awhile about diving before she fitted me with a mask. I opted for one that covers both my nose and mouth; it's far more comfortable than the nose-only mask I used during the sleep study, and if I breathe through my mouth it won't be a problem.

The doctor tells me that with the CPAP machine I do not snore (they have audio recordings to prove this), so I hope it will make Allyson rest easier also. For myself, I definitely feel less drowsy today, even though I would consider the sleep that I got last night to be very poor. I didn't feel any better in the morning -- felt pretty miserable and tired -- but as the day has worn on I have noticed no reduction in alertness, whereas before I would have had trouble keeping my eyes open at work. This is a huge improvement for me.

Apparently I can expect to continue to see such differences as time passes -- I've incurred a considerable metabolic debt, and both body and mind need time to recover from it. But over the next three months, I am told to expect considerable improvements in memory, concentration, and attention-span, as well as physical endurance. Also, sleep apnea disrupts the metabolism so severely that it makes it almost impossible to burn fat, interestingly -- so sleep apnea treatment should also help me lose weight. My apnea is most likely caused by weight issues in the first place, so when I lose enough weight, it will -- probably -- go away. And treating it will make it go away faster. So, this is all to the good.

I just hope I don't experience another psychological claustrophia reaction. I don't understand why I did in the first place; I don't have any other issues with things being put over my face, with masks or small spaces. Hopefully it won't reoccur, but if it does I guess I'll just have to deal with it.

Anyway, I am optimistic. I look forward to seeing how tonight goes.

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